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November, 2000


Thursday, November 2nd 2000

It's my last night in Houston. When I arrived here, a week ago today, the first thing I did was put a country music station on the radio. I don't often listen to country, but I thought while in Texas it would be appropriate. As I drove to and from my various meetings and site visits, I became familiar with the country hits. All of them. The songs were new to me a week ago, but now it's been two or three days since I've heard a single song that I didn't recognize. I guess my trip to Houston is reaching a fundamental limit and it's nearly time to go home.

I've spent the bulk of the last couple of days on the campus of Rice University and in the rooftop suite of the nearby Warwick Hotel. Each of the last three days I attended two lectures in the morning and two lectures in the afternoon. The presenters were leading researchers from institutions all over America who had flown in to brief the National Science Writers meeting which I was attending. Amazing that they could get such high-powered speakers for our little group of perhaps forty journalists. For instance yesterday, after his presentation, I sat at a table for lunch with a Nobel Prize winner! He won the prize in 1996 for his work in discovering the third elemental state of carbon, C60, also known as the 'Buckyball'. Other lectures covered work in molecular nanocomputers, genetic vaccinations, and higher dimensional theories of Gravity.

Today, I went back to the Johnson Space Center for their big Open House. It was another religious experience for me. I started at Ellington Field, where NASA keeps a fleet of T-38 jet fighters for the astronauts to fly. They use them to keep up their flying proficiency and as personal transportation to meetings and training sessions around the country. Ellington Field is also home of the infamous Vomit Comet, the KC-135 zero G training aircraft. It was used to film many of the weightless scenes in 'Apollo 13'. The odd looking Super Guppy airplane, used to ferry Saturn V parts in the days of old and ISS parts today, and the 747 NASA uses to move the Shuttle Orbiters were there too.

Next, I progressed on the Neutral Buoyancy Lab, an enormous swimming pool with a full scale mock up of the Space Station exterior and the Shuttle payload bay submerged within it. The astronauts use this facility to practice space walks. While I was there, two astronauts were just finishing a training session. I watched as they hauled them out of the water, still in their full space suits, with a crane. It was really neat seeing their faces moving around inside the big helmets. There were perhaps a dozen SCUBA divers helping them in the water, and even more technicians on deck to assist them out of their suits when they had been lifted clear of the water. It seemed disproportional to see the brobdignaggian scale of the facility and the number of highly skilled people assembled there just to train two rather ordinary looking guys (apart from the fact they were wearing NASA space suits, which isn't ordinary at all, of course.) But then, isn't everything NASA does on a scale that is larger than life? Rob in Shuttle Commander's Seat

The most profound moment of the day came when I walked up the stairs of Building 30, a large, windowless, five floor building, which houses Mission Control. At the top of three flights of stairs, I walked down a drab, sixties-ish looking, federal style corridor, and into the original Mission Operations Control Room. Although the public doesn't often enter the room, it has been designated a National Historic Landmark and has been fully restored to it's Apollo era configuration. A few Shuttle flights had been controlled from it, but none since 1994. The Shuttle is now controlled from a new room in a new wing of the building. Upon seeing the Apollo control room, empty and quiet, but with its rows of familiar consoles still in place, I felt a chill of awe. This was no simulator or museum piece - this was the real deal.

I walked over to the EECOM console and ran my hands over the panel. I think it is when we actually touch something that it becomes truly real to us. This console is really where an electrical engineer named Sy Liebergott was sitting in April of 1970 the moment Apollo 13 exploded. He was the controller most responsible for diagnosing the problem as it happened. Next, I moved over to the CAPCOM console where the astronauts who spoke to the flight crew in space, relaying all of Mission Control's instructions worked. Astronaut Charlie Duke was sitting at this very console when Neil Armstrong said to him "That's one small step for a man, one giant leap for mankind." Charlie answered with "Roger" in typical astronaut fashion. Then I hopped up one row to the Flight Director's console and reverently sat down. From this chair, men like Gene Kranz, Glyn Lunney, Cliff Charlesworth, and Milt Windler orchestrated the Apollo missions like a conductor presides over a symphony. I felt a lump in my throat when I thought about the long, stress filled nights that had been spent in this room. Then, an involuntary grin broke out on my face thinking about the film I've seen of the cheering and celebration in this very room right after the Eagle touched down safely on the surface of the Moon for the first time.

I sat at the Flight Director's console for many minutes, conjuring up images in my head of all the amazing things that had happened right where I was sitting. I've got a good imagination and I played out many incredible scenes in my mind that had really happened there. There is no place in the Universe more essentially connected to the monumental achievement of Apollo than this very room, I thought, save the six landing sites on the Moon itself. I left the facility, in a stupor of awe, by way of the same staircase Ken Mattingly ran up to Mission Control at the last possible minute with the checklist for the Apollo 13 reentry. It didn't even occur to me at the time, but it's true. I wonder what stories the water fountain I sipped from in the corridor just outside the control room could have told?

I'm leaving Hogwart's for the muggle world tomorrow. I'll be flying home around 12:30 p.m., Houston time, and arriving in Monterey around 8:00 p.m. California time. Brent is going to meet me at the airport. He hasn't been able to do that my last several trips because of his work schedule. This time, I'm planning on giving him a big kiss right there. I've never kissed him in so public a place before, but I'm feeling very daring about it! I hope I don't chicken out at the last minute. If you all want to follow my flight across the southwest, use this link for a geographic display of where my airplane is. All you need is my flight numbers, which I shall provide. The link is: Flight Tracker. Here's my flight data:

Date	Flight	Dept	City	Arv	City
3 Nov 00	DL 4294	1235	HOU	1352	DFW
3 Nov 00	DL 2137	1540	DFW	1651	LAX
3 Nov 00	UA 7912	1835	LAX	1955	MRY


Wednesday, November 8th 2000

Here it is a day after the Presidential elections and we still don't know who the next President will be. Vice President Al Gore has won the popular vote, but the critical electoral vote is still undecided pending a recount in Florida. Most of the States' Electoral College votes are based on an all-or-nothing proposition of the popular vote in the respective State. Because Florida holds 25 electoral votes, it is possible, even likely, that Governor George W. Bush could become the next President despite the fact that a majority of Americans voted for Gore. As President Clinton said today, "No American can ever say again that their vote doesn't count."

I was predicting a disconnect between the electoral vote and the popular vote a week ago. It will be interesting to see if that happens. If so, I anticipate a constitutional crisis that might result in an amendment to the Constitution that abolishes the Electoral College. I would support such a movement. I think that present-day communications are sufficient that the original reasoning behind the college is no longer valid and that the time has come for popular vote to determine Presidential elections, as it does for all other elected offices.

Bryan isn't very happy about the possibility of a Republican in the White House. It's not so clear-cut for me. I think that both Bush and Gore are capable of doing more damage to the country than good for it. Each would do a different kind of damage than the other. I'll be equally disappointed no matter who eventually wins. The major parties simply failed to serve up the best candidates for the job. I would have rather had Bradley or McCain in the White House before Gore or Bush. So, whom did I actually vote for? Well, that would be telling.

Aside from politics, I've been quite busy back here in Monterey the last few days. Because of the Veteran's Day holiday, it's a short week at work. Next week, I'll be traveling to Washington D.C. for a weeklong conference. (Anyone reading in the DC area, please send e mail!) This means that I've got four work days at the office to accomplish three weeks work! Akkk! Needless to say, it's not going to happen. I've managed to produce my travel claim to get reimbursed for all my expenses in Houston, file my paperwork for D.C., and at the moment I'm working on an after action report to my boss about the Houston trip. Oh, I'm also writing some thank-yous to the astronauts that I interviewed last week.

On top of all that work related stuff, Brent and I are planning a little holiday together in Las Vegas for the Veteran's Day weekend! We're going to fly there on Friday and come back home on Sunday. We'll be staying in the MGM Grand Hotel and we are making plans to see Penn and Teller while we're there. Other than that, we'll just have a lot of free time together with none of the usual distractions of home. Brent usually gets a lot friskier when we're traveling (I'm always that way ;-) ) so I'm sure we'll enjoy the trip. Don't count on me bringing the laptop, dear readers and web-cam viewers, you won't be privy to some of the details of this trip!

Speaking of web-cam viewers, you people are all but extinct. I'm wondering if I should drop the effort. Desi says the only way to get a lot of web-cam viewers is to show your dick. I'm not about to do that, at least not on purpose, despite a few slips here and there. I'm sure part of the problem is that the cam is only running at random times for a total of about 10 hours a week, sometimes more when I leave it on Night-Vision mode while I sleep. (It runs a lot more often than I update the date on my index page.) If I can get DSL soon, I could run the camera much more often than that. The cam is just supposed to show (mostly) unedited everyday life at Rob's Flat. Maybe showing it live more often will perk up the pages a bit more. Is it worth the effort? Do you readers actually care about the cam, or do you prefer just reading my over-opinionated prose?

Monday, November 13th 2000


I'm on the ground in Washington D.C. Monday Night Football is on in the background (Raiders vs. Broncos) as I unpack. Normally I don't do that, unpack, but this time it is imperative. D.C. is the land of overdressed blowhards, and even when you're not actually going to meet with any of the blowhards, you still have to overdress. Last time I was here, I went with Brent to the National Zoo on a hot August day. There, in the Elephant House, up to his ankles in straw and offal, we saw a young computer tech repairing a display in a coat and tie. You can't get CEOs in the West to dress beyond jeans and a T shirt, and here's this poor sod troubleshooting the pachyderms' pad in a flippin' tie. Unreal! No, when you go to Washington D.C., you've got to dress to the nines, and make sure you unpack your trunk so that not one article is wrinkled, lest ye offend an elephant.

Las Vegas came and went in a blur of fun. Brent and I flew from San Jose to Las Vegas on Friday morning, checking into the MGM Grand before walking up the strip to explore some of the new hotels. It was chilly on the high desert, the high temperature in the bright afternoon sun was only in the meager 50s. First we walked through the Bellagio, a spectacular hotel with actual quality and artistic value - an anomaly in a city of artificial artifice. We didn't stay too long as we wanted to have lunch at the Las Vegas Hilton at Quark's Restaurant and Bar, part of the Star Trek Experience. Lunch was served with Klingons and the like walking around the bar to our amusement. The rest of the Experience was fun too. While at the Hilton we noticed a Benihana restaurant in the hotel. We both wanted to have dinner there, so we made a quick reservation, then took a cab home for a nap.

After napping for a while I woke up on the bed in a pile with Brent to an unfamiliar ceiling. On it, a big green square of light softly illuminated the room. It's source were the gigawatt powered, emerald colored flood lamps that make the MGM glow with the most magical shade of green I've ever seen. We took a quick shower before catching another cab back to the Hilton. The dinner started with an Asahi Dry for each of us, plus some ahi sushi. The chef was a ham, with his twirling knives and hyperspeed technique. As we moved on to the steak and lobster phase of dinner, lubricated with sake, we made giggling comparisons of our chef to a challenger on "Iron Chef".

Brent and I rolled out of the Benihana around midnight. We didn't linger long in the MGM Casino, favoring a return to our resting place under the illuminated emerald square ceiling. The next day began with breakfast in the Rain Forest Café, a themed restaurant covered in foliage, flowers and electronic exotic animals. It was also well-populated with cute waiters and bussers in shorts. Our mission for the day was to visit the Paris Hotel and the Venetian Hotel. The Paris Hotel was very typical of the new Las Vegas, an epic exercise in engineering, but soulless. The Venetian was bigger and better, more fun with its canals and gondoliers. The Bellagio still won for quality and sincerity, but I liked the Venetian.

After our afternoon of wandering, we repaired to our room for a short rest as we did the day before. Later, we cleaned up for dinner at the MGM's Brown Derby restaurant. Dinner was a more formal affair than the night before, but of course ties were the last thing you'd see around the necks of anyone other than the waiters. I had a martini before dinner, and wanted wine to go with our chateau briand. I asked for the wine list and was shocked to find the cheapest on the list at over $100, many more were in the range of multi-thousands! This was a quality restaurant and I expected to pay $30-$40 for a bottle of wine to go well with a $30 per plate dinner, but this was outrageous. Graciously, I told the waitress that I thought their wine list was spectacular, but that it seemed a bit disproportional to the food. I was disappointed that I wouldn't be able to order wine with my dinner. She apologized, and started to walk away with the wine list, glanced at it, then scolded another waiter for leaving out the VIP wine list. She gave me a more complete and reasonable list from which I ordered a nice Bordeaux.

After an enjoyable and long dinner, we adjourned to the auditorium to see Penn and Teller. They are notable magicians, or perhaps notorious. They often like to perform an impressive piece, then repeat the whole thing in a way that you can see how they did it. Their whole point is to get you to think a little bit and not take magic for granted just because it is an appealing idea. Naturally, I like them. They were very nice and came out to sign things after the show. I filed away Penn and Teller as a good costume routine for Brent and I to do together at a Halloween party some day.

The next day, we flew home via LA. I had the evening to wash some clothes, organize my trip binder for D.C., then pack it all up in a suitcase with a couple of ties and a jacket to impress the becostumed Easterners. Brent stayed the night at my apartment to drop me off at the airport this morning. By noon, I found myself in LA once again. Late this afternoon I changed planes in light snow showers in Chicago, and now, as the Raiders loose the football game in the last seconds, well after midnight, I'm preparing for bed in Washington D.C. We'll see what comes of this trip in the next few days. It is mostly for a conference, but I'm hoping to meet some new friends, and perhaps visit my third of the fifty highest points in the fifty states. Visiting all the highpoints is a goal I'd like to achieve over the next decade or two just for the fun of it. The 300 something foot summit of Delaware isn't too far from D.C. Finally, it will be interesting to be in Washington if the new President is determined while I'm here.

Thursday, November 30th 2000


I'm back from D.C. In fact I've been back for a week and half and there's still no clear idea of who will be President. I enjoyed my time in Washington a great deal. The weather was the sort of classic autumnal chill that we just don't get here in Monterey. Oh, we have our seasons here, but they are far more subtle. I enjoyed walking the Dupont Circle neighborhood while the chilly wind blew dead leaves under a slate colored sky.

One dark evening, I strolled past a brightly lit Japanese restaurant called Raku. The light pouring from its windows seemed inviting. From the sidewalk, I saw a figurine of a beckoning white cat placed atop the sake heater. It promised a happy time if I came in, so I did. Encouraged by the cold air as much as by the cat, I ordered sake and Ahi Maki as an appetizer. I warmed right up and moved on to more sake and grilled trout for dinner.

I ate at the bar, because it was crowded and I didn't think it would be polite for me to hog up a whole table all by myself. I also thought I might be able to strike up a friendly conversation with some of the other patrons. Nope. Not in D.C. As much as I really liked the town, nobody wanted to talk to me. Or maybe they did, but you just don't talk to strangers in Eastern cities. Not even in the gayer parts of Eastern cities, I guess.

After eating (and one last sake to pre-warm before going out), I continued to explore the neighborhood. My plan was to visit two (gay) bars there, recommended on the website of a guy who I'd emailed named Tom. The first one was a rather typical medium/low budget dance club called Chaos.

The club was in a cellar, its exposed pipes, walls and ceilings painted black. The obligatory swirling lights were present, but not spectacular. The music (techno, of course) was too loud to actually have a conversation with anyone and was played over an adequate speaker system, but nothing like the sonic soul-crushing systems I've heard at really large, expensive dance clubs. Dance clubs without a group of friends aren't really all that fun to go to, but I wanted to see the locals and how they lived.

I collected a martini at the bar, and moved towards the back of the club to a location that commanded a view of the entire establishment and began to watch the proceedings. The music and lights improved with the pace of my martini. Everything began to take on a softer edge and moved through time independently of me, the impartial observer. I was safe, unnoticed by anyone, save the bartender.

After a time, I watched a very cute young guy sit down at a table near me. He wasn't drinking on a fake I.D, but I guessed he would have been at this time last year. "He doesn't belong here any more than I do," I thought. He wasn't a club kid. He had straight black hair, of medium length, combed forward. It was almost a Beatles cut, but clear of his ears. No gel. He was maybe 5'10" and 130 lbs. He was clean-shaven, although I didn't think he really needed to shave very often. He wore black Vans, simple, well-washed khakis and a light gray sweatshirt, no collar. I could see the tail of an un-tucked white t-shirt hanging out from under the sweatshirt over what I judged to be a very cute little butt. He didn't fit in with the crowd at all. That would have taken a tight, shiny spandex shirt and black jeans, or maybe a tank-top and leather pants.

It was refreshing to see a cute guy in a gay club who didn't wear the run-of-the-mill and often repulsive club gear. I felt uplifted to see him. "There's hope for the Community here!" I thought. I smiled to myself. Just then, a late-forties looking guy, with gray hair and wearing slacks with a designer leather jacket sat down with the cute guy and put his arm around him. I felt a shot of adrenaline hit my heart almost as fast as the man slid into his chair.

The way the old guy was acting, he had obviously brought the younger guy there on a date, but the cute guy didn't really know how to respond. It was like he'd never been on a date with anyone before. His stiff and awkward body posture indicated he was very uncomfortable with the situation, but at the same time he didn't reject it. The old guy continued to touch his back, hair, and thigh while he acted as if it weren't happening at all.

"Poor kid", I thought with a rising sense of panic, "he's probably just coming out and met this guy on AOL a few months ago." I could hardly bear to watch the scene, yet I couldn't peel my eyes away from the horror of it. There was no reconciling the situation. The old guy might have been a very nice man, and I'll be the first to admit the young guy was very attractive and had a smile that could melt even the most grizzled heart, but they were wrong together as a couple.

What this kid needed was a good friend, and maybe a boyfriend closer to his own age. The old guy could have been a fine friend, but that's not the way he was behaving. He was acting like he just couldn't wait to get in this kid's pants. I shuddered at the thought of what they'd look like sleeping together the next morning. The tragic scenario overwhelmed me, I felt sick and I had to leave.

Discouraged, but not yet broken, I stopped to check out another bar on the way back to my hotel. It was a place called J.R.'s. The crisp autumn air during my short walk improved my outlook. I entered J.R.'s with abundant optimism. This, I thought, would be the clean, friendly, well-lighted place I was looking for. It was smaller than the dance club, more of a pub-like setting really, for some reason they had techno music blasting and had turned out all the lights despite the fact that there was no place for dancing there.

The room was packed full of guys of all ages and states of inebriation. Flocks of friends huddled together working out the subtle negotiations of who would sleep with whom that night. Between the groups, lone wolves worked the room, scheming to pick off strays - those who had failed to secure a hookup from among their friends. There was no reason for me to stay. Disheartened, I slipped through the crowd to the front door and continued home through the chilly night air.

It was obvious to me that the management had completely failed. The Boomers and their disco-damaged collective psyche had to be replaced. The lives of young America's average gay citizens wouldn't be normalized until this generation wrests control away from the last.