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September, 2001
Memory works in a strange way. I've been scanning a lot of pictures lately, inspired by scanning my pictures from last month's Mt. Baker climb. This picture, of me enjoying a fine lobster dinner on a warm Massachusetts evening, is from last summer. I remember that dinner like it happened last month, except it didn't. It happened a year ago last month. That's the strange thing about memory. As I get older, my memory experiences time-dilatation. A year no longer seems like a long time.
I can clearly remember, around the age of nine, when the time from Christmas until my birthday was an eternity. (On the calendar it is four months.) Each day seemed longer then, and a month felt so long it was almost immeasurable. My nine-year-old brain simply couldn't distinguish four months from forever. Flash forward ten years and you'll find me in college, when a month meant one third of a school quarter - about the period between mid-term exams in my classes. A month went by faster, but you could still cram a lot of new material, pop-quizzes, and studying in-between the two mid-term exams of each quarter. (I managed to cram a respectable number of parties in there too!)
Each of my four years at Auburn University seemed to elapse more quickly than the previous. Despite that, the four (and a half years) of my undergraduate experience at Auburn felt like a very long time. Actually, they felt like a complete lifetime, independent of my life before that in grade school.
Flash forward another ten years and find me working for a living at the Navy School, back in my hometown of Monterey. Again, there feels like a complete disconnect between my life in Auburn and my life back in Monterey. I fondly remember Auburn in great detail, but I almost remember it like a movie - a story I saw with my own eyes, but it wasn't my own. The flow rate of time is now simply absurd. A month is nothing. My monthly bills seem like they arrive daily. It takes much longer than a month to prepare and train for an expedition. I can't get anything done in just one month anymore.
Even years can slip away without notice. That's why the picture here today doesn't seem like a year ago. Even worse, I'm now more consciously aware of the limited number of years available to me. Life is no longer quite the open-ended proposition it used to seem. With time going by so fast, a rational mind can't escape the worry that the end of the road is a tangible entity.
Have you ever noticed that you seem to able to drive a lot farther on the first half of a tank of gas than the second? I'm concerned now that life is like that too, because of the strangeness of memory. I'm nearly halfway through my life expectancy, but because of the increased rate that I now perceive time, I'm through perhaps three-quarters of my life experience. If that's not a big worry, I don't know what is.
My friend Bryan wrote last week that he's amazed how much I'm constantly on the go. A few other people pointed this out to me recently too. I never really thought that I'm more active than anyone else, but I'm starting to think that, indeed, maybe I am a little busier than some. Maybe it is my acute awareness of the ultimate deadline creeping up on me faster every year. I have no expectation of an afterlife, so I've got a lot of living to get done in whatever time I've got left! That is the sense of urgency that drives me.
Based on that statement alone, you might think I'm an aggressive, "A" type personality. Not true. Those readers that have met me in person know that I am slow and quiet. (I write far more than I talk!) I avoid wasting physical and emotional energy. I speak slowly. I walk slowly. I think about things carefully before taking action. Real "A" type people are often frustrated when they interact with me because of my deliberate pace. But, over the course of an entire lifetime, I think my constant and incessant pace will allow me to go farther and drink deeper of life than those who rush themselves to an early grave.
An Afterthought ...
Tuesday, September 11 2001
I don't know what to say. The world changed today in a horrible way.
Tuesday, September 11 2001 Part II
I saw something I've never seen before today. The skies were clear. There was not a single contrail in the sky all day long. The sky looked strange and empty. The same way I felt most of the day; Strange and empty.
Wednesday, September 12 2001 Part II
Today the sun rose over a New York City without the twin towers of the World Trade Center for the first time in almost three decades. New York has long been a magnanimous lady, smiling broadly with arms open to welcome the world's poor and oppressed. Yesterday the oppressors bashed out her two front teeth.
The scope of the atrocities committed yesterday was far beyond a crime. Never before have so many American civilians lost their lives at one time, but this should not be thought of as mass murder, but rather as the opening sneak attack in a war. It really was a second Pearl Harbor.
It bothered me to listen to Senator Joe Biden, speaking from the Senate floor, saying things like "find out who is responsible" and "bring them to justice". That is the kind of language used when investigating a crime. It is the wrong response to the destruction of Fortress America. The time for investigations and justice is over. As Sen. Rick Santorum of Pennsylvania indicated during his time on the floor today, "bringing them to justice" is last week's response to terrorism and completely inappropriate now. This is no longer crime, this is war. The Department of Justice need not concern itself with the problem; it now falls clearly into the Department of Defenses' court.
The rules of enragement change when you are waging a war as opposed to investigating a crime. A policeman must wait until the bad guys commit a crime before they can intervene. A platoon in the bush doesn't wait until the enemy starts shooting before defending themselves. Instead, they endeavor to kill the enemy in their sleep before they have any ability to fight back. A policeman can only arrest those directly involved with an offense. When Japan attacked Pearl Harbor, we did not try to find the carrier that launched the attack and arrest the crew. Instead, we worked hard to sink all of Japan's carriers and shoot down all their aircraft so that they were completely defeated and had no ability to attack again. Eventually, it took two nuclear bombs to gain that assurance.
Another important difference between a police action and a war is due process. I'm not really interested in due process and justice right now. What happened in New York and Washington was too big to adequately punish anyone for. Revenge is an empty goal.
I simply want national security. A free and open nation can't safely exist in a world where suicidal megalomaniacs have the ability and resources to commit attacks on this scale. For instance, we can never keep our airliners safe from hijackers of this kind, no matter how draconian airport security becomes. The only answer is to eliminate the source of the threat. We must eliminate any organization with the ability and the will to organize a terrorist attack on the United States, whether or not they have yet carried out such an attack. It would be a great mistake just to try to keep Terrorism at bay, with security and deterrents. Security can never be very good in a free society, and we don't want to live in a police state. Deterrents, such as threat of punishment or retaliation, are useless against suicidal religious maniacs. The only solution is to render our enemies harmless before they can do harm.
To me, this is war. Every American citizen must do whatever he or she can to contribute to the war effort. No American should even think about "getting things back to normal" until every known terrorist threat to the U.S. on Earth has been neutralized. Just like in World War II, normality is neither the priority, nor even a concern until the war is over and America is victorious.
I hope that Congress, within the next day or two, openly declares a state of war against Terrorism. All the money from the political 'war on drugs' should be immediately diverted to an actual war on Terrorism. I'd be willing to wager far more Americans died in the attack on our country yesterday than have ever died of illicit drug-related problems. How can we justify another dollar spent against drugs until the threat of international terrorism has been minimized?
I wonder if George Bush has anything up his sleeve? As of this afternoon, I'm still hearing way too many government officials talking about investigations and punishing those that committed the attack. That's old school and depressing to me. That kind of thinking is like the thinking of British officers in the French and Indian War, lining their troops up in rows as had been done in the previous few centuries of warfare. The redcoats were slaughtered by continental forces hiding behind trees, because they failed to adapt to the new paradigm for war.
The world changed drastically yesterday, business as usual is not the correct response. New York, as strong a lady as she is, was viciously raped yesterday. If American leadership doesn't quickly change the way it thinks about terrorism, she could easily be killed with a terrorist nuclear bomb next week. What? You think I should stop sounding like a summer blockbuster or a Tom Clancy novel? Go back and look at the video from yesterday and then tell me I'm being unrealistic.
Thursday, September 13 2001 Part II
I am breathing a little sigh of relief as I see America's national leadership is now coming around to my way of thinking. In a phone call to me, Zup surmised that they probably just needed a day or two to catch up to events and change their old rhetoric.
You may recall, (or read above) I am calling for the legal approach to fighting terrorism to be abandoned as a failure in favor of a wartime approach. We must break the Terrorist's triangle of motive, means, and opportunity. Without sacrificing our most precious national asset - our freedom - we can't deny the Terrorists the opportunity to attack us again. Therefore, the solutions that remain open are to diplomatically remove their motive (hatred of America) and militarily remove their means (destroy all terrorist training camps, assassinate all known terrorists, overthrow any governments that support terrorists).
The overthrow of governments will require impressive military force and further loss of American lives. I think this is why the world has only used a tit-for-tat approach to Terror in the past. Now we have reason and moral justification to put the weight of an entire wartime effort behind it. The last time Washington D.C. was attacked by foreigners, the War of 1812 resulted. In that war, over the course of five years 1,950 Americans were killed. So, it is almost certain that far more Americans died in the opening blasts of this new war, than in the entire War of 1812. It is concievable that the casualties of September 9th could exceed the number of Americans who died for their country in Korea or Viet Nam, about 50,000 each.
Our elected leadership in Washington D.C. has indeed taken in the scale of what began this week and is showing signs of taking the steps needed to regain national security. I criticized Senator Joe Biden yesterday morning for his police-matter approach to the atrocities in a speach on the Senate floor. I must retract that criticism, because by the end of the day, in an interview on NBC, he had changed his outlook entirely. By then, he was saying that international state sponsored terrorism had crossed the line and signed it's own death warrant. He did not speak in terms of justice, but rather in terms of eradication.
In a public statement at the Pentagon today, the Deputy Secretary of Defense, Paul Wolfowitz, said "It's not just simply a matter of capturing people and holding them accountable, but removing the sanctuaries, removing the support systems, ending states who sponsor terrorism." This is the fundamental change in dealing with terrorism that I am calling for. "Ending states" is the serious business of warfare. The last two foreign states we ended were Imperial Japan and Nazi Germany. Those nations and their cultures still exist, but their respective previous apparatus of government were destroyed and replaced. This is, I think, what the Bush Administration correctly intends to do to every nation on Earth that actively or passively supports fanatical terrorists.
Secretary of State Colon Powell has been busy drawing a line in the sands of the Middle East. Using diplomatic channels, the U.S. seems to be quickly dividing the nations of the world into two groups; those for and those against Terrorism. Powell has successfully invoked Article 5 of NATO, an unprecedented achievement that treats an attack on any single NATO country as an attack on all the nations of NATO.
Powell made clear the Administration's intent to eradicate organized terrorism, speaking in a press conference this morning. He said that when the group responsible for the Tuesday atrocities was identified, "We will go after that group, that network and those who have harbored, supported and aided that network, to rip that network up." More significantly, Powell continued his comment saying, "When we are through with that network, we will continue with a global assault against terrorism in general."
I think we may see a lot of violent action in the near future. Not just Tomahawk strikes, but the systematic invasion and occupation of terrorist states. It is a response in proportion, when you consider that Terrorists killed at least twice as many Americans on Tuesday as Hitler killed on D-day. And this time it happened on American soil. President Bush must ensure that international terrorism dies on his watch, no matter the cost.